We currently find ourselves in limbo, once again.

I am not going to go into details why we are in limbo, but there may be a move in our near future.

It would be a good move. A long-term move. A move that would get us back to a community that we can invest our money, time and emotions into.

As most of you know, we have not been happy in Augusta. We moved here to get closer to family and to give Christian new opportunities in his career. We knew, when we moved, that we were not going to be here long term. This is a stepping-stone for Christian. Once we got here, we went through a period of mourning for what we had “lost”. That, coupled with the fact that Augusta has problems, big problems, made our attitude toward our current situation very sour. Now, that we are past the mourning, we are still left with the fact that this is not a city that we really want to invest ourselves in. There are too many issues and we don’t want to be here long enough to try to solve any of them. Is that a selfish attitude on our part? I am beginning to think it is.

It is easy to go into a community that has the right attitude, and is obviously taking steps in the positive direction, and get involved. It is not so easy to go into a community that has problems we have never had to experience, and try to get them going in a positive direction. Especially, if we know we won’t be here for more that a few years. If this current situation does not work out, and we are in Augusta for a while, I have to change my attitude. I will not become a better person by sitting back and saying how bad this city is.

No, I may not be able to make a difference, but I can try. I think I would like to focus on children and a reading program. There are so many children in this city that have no advantages. They have no one to set a positive example for them. They have no sense of chance. I have the ability to give that to them. It’s not like I am going to get involved in a neighborhood or downtown. I really have nothing else to do.

So, if we stay, I’m going to get involved. I am going to make the most of my time here. I am going to enjoy this phase of our life and learn as much as I can from it. If we move, we will be moving to a community that will be easy to get involved with, so there won’t be an issue.